No More Wine......Ever?
Why do people choose to write a blog?
I'm guessing 99% of bloggers do for the same reason I am, to be accountable and keep myself on track. For the past decade I feel as though every January I take part in the "New Year, New Me" craze. The results of which tend to be the same. I go hell for leather for two weeks, only to jack it in on week 3 and revert to my old ways.
"Insanity is doing the same thing over & over again & expecting different results" Albert Einstein
There is so much truth in this. We can't be different without making a change and old habits die hard. More often than not we try to change too much, trip ourselves up before we have even begun. So this year I am pledging to make a few smaller changes, which will (hopefully) build into something bigger:
1) From 31st Dec 2018 - 100 Alcohol Free Days in a row (Currently on day 5)
2) Lose 1 stone in weight
3) Learn a new creative skill
Pledge 1
Wine has been my tipple of choice for the past 15 years (I'm currently 33). I still remember the first time I tried it...I didn't like it. But was determined to like it. It was the alcoholic beverage both my Mum & Gran drank. We lived together and they would share of bottle in the evening. Wine seemed sophisticated and classy, now I should really add at this point unfortunately quite often this would not be the image I portrayed whilst drinking vino. Cringe. But there is plenty of time for me confess and revisit my less than dignified moments in my life at a later date.
Christmas 2018 has been extremely enjoyable, lots of family moments and wonderful memories made but one too many hangovers. I just cant take the headaches, sickness and fear anymore. You know "The Wine Fear!" What did I say? What did I do? Who did I offend? I have become an expert at replaying my nights out in my head, over and over. Attempting to pinpoint any indiscretion or embarrassing moment in HD. Molehills become mountains in a matter of minutes and I am cursing myself yet again for having a few drinks too many.
So on New Years Eve I decided to drive and that was day one in my alcohol free journey. Every other year I have started my "change" on January 1st this year I was not doing the same thing. Thank you Mr Einstein.,
Do I have a problem with alcohol? My honest answer is I suspect so. Now I don't drink every day (read 3-5 times per week) but if I open a bottle I finish it and quite often open another. If there is wine in the house I drink it. Specifically white wine - I'm not particularly bothered which variety, just the colour. I love the feeling of a wine glass between my fingers, sitting on the couch watching EastEnders. More often than not, I don't remember what happened clearly. Now I have pledged 100 alcohol free days but I suspect this will need to be forever. I don't do moderation, one glass is never enough but at the moment forever seems...….well forever and that is final.
Pledge 2
Adulthood does not come on its own. Unfortunately mine has came hand in hand with piling on a few excess pounds. I have been a member of slimming world for the past 2.5 years since my daughter was born. If I am honest I have 2 stone to lose, however to cut a long story short I am pretty much at the same weight as I started. Again cringe. Now during this time I have been over a stone lighter and running 10k runs. However old habits die hard and I lose focus, drink wine, eat takeaway piling the pounds back on.
So as of the 4th January 2018, I am:
11 stone 9 pounds
My waist is 38inches
The fattest part of my belly is 44inches.
I have taken some lovely mirror selfies in my undies, I do not feel ready to share. Perhaps if I get my mum bod kicked into shape I might, no promises. You probably wouldn't want to see my wobbly bits anyway!
Pledge 3
Since childhood I have been one of the least artistic, creative members of the class. Though I have always fancied doing something creative. So I am signed up for a 12 week photography course starting in February.
So here I am on day 5 of my sober journey into 2019, feeling positive and looking forward to the "New Me". Hopefully a slimmer, calmer and non-hungover me! I really feel that going sober is the life change I need to make. I've tried diets and exercise but always revert back to my old ways when the mummy juice comes a calling.
My pledges are set in stone, now I just need to put it all into action. There will be bumps in the road but I will navigate them. I will. I can. I do.
If anyone has taken the time to read this, thank you. All the best in your journey whatever it may be moving forward.
Take Care
WM-NM
I'm guessing 99% of bloggers do for the same reason I am, to be accountable and keep myself on track. For the past decade I feel as though every January I take part in the "New Year, New Me" craze. The results of which tend to be the same. I go hell for leather for two weeks, only to jack it in on week 3 and revert to my old ways.
"Insanity is doing the same thing over & over again & expecting different results" Albert Einstein
There is so much truth in this. We can't be different without making a change and old habits die hard. More often than not we try to change too much, trip ourselves up before we have even begun. So this year I am pledging to make a few smaller changes, which will (hopefully) build into something bigger:
1) From 31st Dec 2018 - 100 Alcohol Free Days in a row (Currently on day 5)
2) Lose 1 stone in weight
3) Learn a new creative skill
Pledge 1
Wine has been my tipple of choice for the past 15 years (I'm currently 33). I still remember the first time I tried it...I didn't like it. But was determined to like it. It was the alcoholic beverage both my Mum & Gran drank. We lived together and they would share of bottle in the evening. Wine seemed sophisticated and classy, now I should really add at this point unfortunately quite often this would not be the image I portrayed whilst drinking vino. Cringe. But there is plenty of time for me confess and revisit my less than dignified moments in my life at a later date.
Christmas 2018 has been extremely enjoyable, lots of family moments and wonderful memories made but one too many hangovers. I just cant take the headaches, sickness and fear anymore. You know "The Wine Fear!" What did I say? What did I do? Who did I offend? I have become an expert at replaying my nights out in my head, over and over. Attempting to pinpoint any indiscretion or embarrassing moment in HD. Molehills become mountains in a matter of minutes and I am cursing myself yet again for having a few drinks too many.
So on New Years Eve I decided to drive and that was day one in my alcohol free journey. Every other year I have started my "change" on January 1st this year I was not doing the same thing. Thank you Mr Einstein.,
Do I have a problem with alcohol? My honest answer is I suspect so. Now I don't drink every day (read 3-5 times per week) but if I open a bottle I finish it and quite often open another. If there is wine in the house I drink it. Specifically white wine - I'm not particularly bothered which variety, just the colour. I love the feeling of a wine glass between my fingers, sitting on the couch watching EastEnders. More often than not, I don't remember what happened clearly. Now I have pledged 100 alcohol free days but I suspect this will need to be forever. I don't do moderation, one glass is never enough but at the moment forever seems...….well forever and that is final.
Pledge 2
Adulthood does not come on its own. Unfortunately mine has came hand in hand with piling on a few excess pounds. I have been a member of slimming world for the past 2.5 years since my daughter was born. If I am honest I have 2 stone to lose, however to cut a long story short I am pretty much at the same weight as I started. Again cringe. Now during this time I have been over a stone lighter and running 10k runs. However old habits die hard and I lose focus, drink wine, eat takeaway piling the pounds back on.
So as of the 4th January 2018, I am:
11 stone 9 pounds
My waist is 38inches
The fattest part of my belly is 44inches.
I have taken some lovely mirror selfies in my undies, I do not feel ready to share. Perhaps if I get my mum bod kicked into shape I might, no promises. You probably wouldn't want to see my wobbly bits anyway!
Pledge 3
Since childhood I have been one of the least artistic, creative members of the class. Though I have always fancied doing something creative. So I am signed up for a 12 week photography course starting in February.
So here I am on day 5 of my sober journey into 2019, feeling positive and looking forward to the "New Me". Hopefully a slimmer, calmer and non-hungover me! I really feel that going sober is the life change I need to make. I've tried diets and exercise but always revert back to my old ways when the mummy juice comes a calling.
My pledges are set in stone, now I just need to put it all into action. There will be bumps in the road but I will navigate them. I will. I can. I do.
If anyone has taken the time to read this, thank you. All the best in your journey whatever it may be moving forward.
Take Care
WM-NM
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