Sun, Sea and Sober?
So I am currently on day 9 of this AF journey and so far it has been surprisingly straight forward. No cravings as such for my pal Vino. I am downing a bottle of shloer every night, that's got to be better than a bottle of its alcoholic cousin, so I'm not questioning myself yet. Perhaps when my largest size of jeans struggle to close I will need to revisit the situation.
Tonight when I logged onto my blog, the statistics page was different....my blog had views? Omg I had not expected anyone to come across this. How do you even find a blog? Anyway whoever you are, thank you for taking the time to have a nosy. I may not be Wordsworth but I do try! It is nice to think that I am not just talking to myself....but if it keeps me on the straight and narrow so be it. I see this blog as a diary, my "check in" on myself that I am still AF.
In 2 days, we are jetting off to sunny Lanzarote and I cannot wait! The thought of having warm sunshine on my skin and not having to wear a jacket all day is just dreamy. But I am terrified of being in the sun AF. Alcohol has always been a massive part of holidays and trips for me, at any opportunity I would have a glass of wine. We would always order a bottle with dinner, then another. This time we are hiring a villa rather than being all inclusive, so at least I can manage what alcohol is in the house. Not having a "free" bar available will be a huge help. It is a challenge but I am ready for it.
I know when I return from a 7 day sun holiday and I have done the whole week sober, I will be able to do anything. Every holiday commercial, hotel advert and facebook status pushes the requirement to drink alcohol while lying in the sun. Our newsfeeds are fully of creamy pink cocktails, cooling mojitos and luxurious bottles of wine of the beach - all marketed as required for the best holiday. I have had some fantastic family holidays over the past 5 years, but on every single one I have had incidences of drinking too much. Waking up not fully remembering the night before. Having to go for a nap before dinner to refresh after the afternoon cocktails. Starting at 12noon and not finishing till late. Always wanting one more drink....
There are no huge blowouts or embarrassing stories to tell about me being drunk on holiday. I was loud, brash, slurring and selfish - I don't like that person. That person is not me. I don't like not remembering every detail of my family holidays. Time goes by so quickly and alcohol makes it go even faster. I want to live my holiday in technicolour and burn every moment to memory. Alcohol will stop this happening, alcohol will turn me into the person I despise, alcohol will tarnish my holiday..….so I am going to embark on my first ever sober holiday....and I can't bloody wait!
A short post but a positive one.
Speak soon
WM-NM x
Tonight when I logged onto my blog, the statistics page was different....my blog had views? Omg I had not expected anyone to come across this. How do you even find a blog? Anyway whoever you are, thank you for taking the time to have a nosy. I may not be Wordsworth but I do try! It is nice to think that I am not just talking to myself....but if it keeps me on the straight and narrow so be it. I see this blog as a diary, my "check in" on myself that I am still AF.
In 2 days, we are jetting off to sunny Lanzarote and I cannot wait! The thought of having warm sunshine on my skin and not having to wear a jacket all day is just dreamy. But I am terrified of being in the sun AF. Alcohol has always been a massive part of holidays and trips for me, at any opportunity I would have a glass of wine. We would always order a bottle with dinner, then another. This time we are hiring a villa rather than being all inclusive, so at least I can manage what alcohol is in the house. Not having a "free" bar available will be a huge help. It is a challenge but I am ready for it.
I know when I return from a 7 day sun holiday and I have done the whole week sober, I will be able to do anything. Every holiday commercial, hotel advert and facebook status pushes the requirement to drink alcohol while lying in the sun. Our newsfeeds are fully of creamy pink cocktails, cooling mojitos and luxurious bottles of wine of the beach - all marketed as required for the best holiday. I have had some fantastic family holidays over the past 5 years, but on every single one I have had incidences of drinking too much. Waking up not fully remembering the night before. Having to go for a nap before dinner to refresh after the afternoon cocktails. Starting at 12noon and not finishing till late. Always wanting one more drink....
There are no huge blowouts or embarrassing stories to tell about me being drunk on holiday. I was loud, brash, slurring and selfish - I don't like that person. That person is not me. I don't like not remembering every detail of my family holidays. Time goes by so quickly and alcohol makes it go even faster. I want to live my holiday in technicolour and burn every moment to memory. Alcohol will stop this happening, alcohol will turn me into the person I despise, alcohol will tarnish my holiday..….so I am going to embark on my first ever sober holiday....and I can't bloody wait!
A short post but a positive one.
Speak soon
WM-NM x
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